This is going to be a shorter post–mainly because I don’t have a whole lot to write about today–my mind has been occupied with other things–and because I’m happily tired from being up all night chatting with a friend. And what a chat it was!
Today my mind is on happiness, commonality, the miracles of chemistry–and how to clean dried fluids off of one’s iPhone. All in all, it has been a very, very good 24 hours. I am so profoundly grateful for my life and the people in it–new friends and old. It feels good to have weeded out (most of) those that don’t belong in my circle (for whatever reason)–and although I have a few more to go–I’m feeling good about standing up for myself–it’s about time. And it really does get easier.
One complaint–J could be nicer to me and he could lose the passive-aggressive bullshit also. I’m tired of being made to feel that I’m getting something at his expense. For example, tonight, I chose a restaurant that didn’t have a steak on the menu–and he was really craving a steak. I offered to leave and find another place to eat, but he was insistent on staying there.
To their credit, they did have a beef kabob on the specials’ menu–but he refused to order it–even though it would have sated his craving. He even accused me of knowing that this particular place did not have a steak on the menu–and choosing it on purpose. It’s a shitty thing to accuse me of–and I was actually hoping to find a nice-ish place that wasn’t too crowded AND had a steak on the menu. It really hurts to know how very little he thinks of me and of my intentions towards him. He has become quite good at assuming the absolute worst of me. I hate that. I’m trying so hard to be nice and accommodating.
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